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Wednesday, 09 June 2010 01:33 |
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Its been awhile since I blogged! I have been taking some time to reevaluate my career. I've gone as far as I can without a manager, I must now try to find a management team that will at least take a look at me. Its a scary but needed step. I've been feeling in limbo these days as the toughness of this business gets to me, 7 and a half years and I have to stay positive. I just got back off of a Comics On Duty and its a very rewarding thing getting to do my act for the soldiers, its a crazy tour one show its for 35 people in a small bar on base to having 900 soldiers marched into a theatre! I know I have to keep more on track with my career, part of that is keeping up this site! I have to do a better job! well I hope everyone is well and have a great week! |
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Thursday, 01 April 2010 23:23 |
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I've only been home for 2 days the entire month of March! a full week in Reno were I caught the H1N1 flu, which was the worst flu I've ever had in my life! I've never passed out until I got this flu and I still had to preform, The crowds were great and still laughed even though I had to sit down for some of the jokes to keep from falling over. And I had to fly out as I was getting over it, I knew I shouldn't fly in the state I was in but I flew back on a Monday only to hop back on a plane Wednesday. Then in 11 days I had 8 bases in 4 different states and 11 shows. Its 4 guys in a f250 truck traveling and telling jokes to all the branches of the armed forces. The funny thing is the Army is the toughest to make laugh. The Navy and Air force laugh likes its a comedy club, its weird. But its great to be back in K ROCK! I have a few weeks off to recoup and work on Digitalfirestarter is starting to take shape, we have over 27 interviews done, I hope by this Saturday we'll have 2 up and were going to try to get 2 per week up. Anyways thats all for know I'm a little lazy this week so I'll talk more once I've caught up on some needed rest! |
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Saturday, 06 March 2010 18:02 |
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Yesterday was one of the worst days of my life, Yvonne and I had to put down one the greatest dogs ever. I've had dogs my entire life as well as Yvonne and there was no doubt that Samantha was a special dog. 5 years ago I was in my second year of comedy and it was really tough, bookers weren't returning my calls and I just couldn't make enough money, so I went to work for my in-laws as a lawn mower mechanic at their John Deere dealership. At the time we already had 2 dogs and weren't looking for any more, a few months before that we had lost a dog named Sam that was a sweetheart dog that Yvonne saved off the side of the highway, he was also a very special dog to us. On a morning sometime in January Sue my mother in-law pulled in to work with the cutest puppy I ever saw that she found on the side of the road, big beautiful brown eyes and huge floppy ears and just a little goofy looking, she actually reminded me of me! the whole big ears and goofy part. I took one look at her and she looked at me and told her she was coming home with me she was to cute and I had to have her. I knew Yvonne would have no problem with that as she is usually the one that brings home the strays. As a puppy she was destructive and wild! I'd take her outside and it would take me an hour to catch her. She use to drive me crazy! But I knew there was something about her. She loved to be loved as most dogs do but with Samantha it had a different feel, In the morning when I'd get out of bed to make my coffee I knew it was only a minute or two when I'd hear her paws clicking on the tile floor, you knew it was her because even her walk seemed happy. I'd take my coffee and go to the spot on my couch and catch up on the previous nights shows, and Samantha always hopped up on the couch with me burring her head into my chest and enjoying the morning with me, I never took those moments for granted. Whether i was happy or depressed Samantha always gave me a sense of calm in those moments. As she got a year or two old she calmed down a little, but could still be destructive if we left her alone a little to long we would come home to a torn up house. Then one day we noticed a bump on her butt but thought nothing of it, the vet office didn't make much of it either, but we still made the decision to remove it, thats when we found out she had MCT mass cell tumors. Yvonne and I stayed so optimistic all the way, well its OK she's so young her body will fight it. But it spread through her leg and got really bad, Yvonne fought hard and actually got her hands on an experimental drug that cleared up the cancer in a week! And it didn't slow down Samantha in the least still happy mixed with a little crazy! But then she got sick and we had to take her off the medication because it was hurting her liver, when we did that her leg exploded with MCT cells, which eventually lead to us having to get the leg removed. Once again in a few week we had are old Samantha back! running and playing on three legs like it was nothing. We thought because we took out the source we could have her around for years to come, but three weeks later the MCT cells were back and we now put her through radiation, three weeks of it, and she was happy the whole time through it, the vets office loved her, which Affiliated vetranary's in Maitland were amazing they care there and will do anything for your pet, along with showing you and your pet great compassion and love. Dr. Moore spent a lot of time crying with us as she had gotten to know Samantha over the last year and a half. The radiation took once again Samantha had gotten through it, but I noticed my same old Samantha wasn't the same, she use to love just sitting outside enjoying the day you'd look at her out there and think wow she's got it down, a dog knows more how to enjoy her life more then any human being. But I'd open the door and and Samantha would look outside but decide to stay in, that broke my heart and started to realize that she was getting closer to the end. When I got up in the morning to get my coffee she wasn't right behind me anymore the rattling of her pill bottles now got her out of bed. And the morning visits with me were no longer there, I'd have to call her over and pick her up to be with me, those big beautiful eyes would still look at me but my heart filled with sadness not knowing how many more moments I'll cherish with my girl. In the end it was her liver that failed her, her last few days she was turning yellow from jondus and her last night she wouldn't lay down, I woke up and found her pacing on the floor beside me, I was really tired but the whole night just felt a little off. I got on the floor she came up to me and I started petting her and she finely laid down on my lap, she was pressing really hard against me the entire time, I started to cry as I succumb to a feeling that this was our last moment together with her on my lap, as she fell asleep and I headed back to bed I prayed that she would pass in her sleep. We woke up the next morning and Samantha could no longer stand, I showed her her leash which always drives her crazy to go in the car and she just sat there and looked at me, I couldn't fight it, I lost it I was overcome with grief knowing full well that these were my last few moments with her. I picked her up and put her in the back seat so Yvonne and her could spend some time together as I drove us to the vet. When we got to the vets office and sent her to the back we were then called to the back so we knew it wasn't good. She had over 80% liver failure and has starting to bleed internally. They said they had to do blood to see if her blood was clotting if it was, there was a chance for her if it wasn't she'd have a 15% chance of making it. Yvonne and I went to lunch trying to choke down a meal, its weird feeling like your starving but still having a hard time eating, and once again we were optamistic saying if anyone can pull through this its Samantha. When we got back to the vets office we got worse news then we expected, Samantha had DIC her body was making blood clots all through her body, We had to put her down that day. We called Yvonne's parents as they are very close to Samantha as well to come and say their good byes as we waited for them to get there Dr.Moore asked if we wanted to sit outside with Samantha while we waited and I asked if we could put her down out there as well, she loved being outside and it was a beautiful day as well. As we waited we told stories and kept telling her how much she meant to us, Dr. Moore came out to put her down and she was crying as well, Yvonne and I held her as we looked at her in her eyes telling her how much we loved her and I could see in her eyes when her life left her body, it took everything inside of me to be there, Death is something I don't understand and I don't want to be around it, but it wasn't about me it was about my Samantha I wanted to be there to let her know what she meant to me, It gives me peace being beside her in her final moments the pain of losing her when she was only 5 is horrible, Yvonne and I though even through the cancer she'd be fine, And without the love, compassion and tenacity of my wife we would've have lost her months ago. Samantha thank you for the dog you were, you brought so much to our lives, I hope we showed you the love you deserved, this house feels so empty without you. We love you with all our hearts and we will always think of you, even though your gone and the pain is unbearable at times I still have moments when I smile thinking of some of the great moments we shared. |
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Wednesday, 03 March 2010 03:44 |
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Well, Things seem to be going great! I'm stressed out to the max and busy! I want it to keep moving I don't know what to do if it started slowing down. I'm working with a talented young comedian to start hoping in on some of the interviews when I'm on the road, I'm gone almost the entire month of March. Trying to stay up on the site is a different animal I have to keep telling myself to update! I'm looking forward to some time in Reno to work on my marketing, for 2 reasons one is I'm doing a terrible job of it but the second is to keep me off the tables! and the comedy club is located in a casino. I would love to do some great things with my website but that costs money but every year is a little closer. I'm in a very optimistic mood these days and feeling great! I just got done with a great week in Tampa at Sidesplitters, I've been working there for 6 years and this was my first time headlining there so there was a little pressure but the whole week was outstanding! |
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Thursday, 18 February 2010 16:10 |
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Man, I thought I was going to blog a little more! but its been more then stressful and hectic lately. The club I started at over 7 years ago closed down along with the open mic I ran every Tuesday that paid that is killing me financially right now, and the interviews have picked up with 10 in two weeks! four last week and six this week. I've never been so busy in my career but on the same page never so broke, seven years of this it has to turn soon. The sacrifice made in my life personally and professionally takes a huge toll on me but at the end of the day I'm the one that chose this as a career. I know it will get better but its another year trying to carve out my place in an over saturated market. I would love to thank all the people that stay in touch with me and hound me when I'm coming back to their town, That does a lot for me, it makes me work harder and keeps me writing so there's always some new stories in my show so please keep that up! Also to my beautiful wife Yvonne that believes in us and what I'm doing with my life, she truly is one of a kind with her in my life I wouldn't be able to make it through a lot of what has happened to me since I started. I'm so grateful for my life I'm 32 and already have gotten to experience so much, so I know in life, its not fair or easy for any of us, but as we live we learn and get stronger comedy has changed who I am as a person, Its made me tougher and more compassionate at the same time I really can't wait to see what's next for me down the line! Enough rambling I gotta go! |
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Sunday, 24 January 2010 16:25 |
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Well, I'm feeling really good about comedy these days I've had two weeks of strong shows, which was needed after a few weeks of not so good shows, I'm glad to have this week off because my Feb. is pretty nuts. I'm also getting excited as Digitalfirestarter.com is only a few short weeks from launching. I've been writing a lot as well that always makes me happy I never like coming back to a club unless I have at least a new 10 mins. in there so people don't hear the same old bologna. Among other things I've been sober (kinda) for 10 months, but I enjoyed the occasional beer, but as I've learned not even that is good for me anymore, so from this day forward I am 100% sober! no more drinking period! Ever since I was "kinda" sober things in my life started going so much better, so if I'm completely sober I can't imagine were life will take me! that mixed in with some good old fashion hard work! well that's all for this time. |
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Tuesday, 19 January 2010 19:25 |
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Well, I just got back from Sidesplitters in Knoxville, Had a great time and worked with a great comic Jason Kanter, and its looking like Feb. is going to be a crazy busy month, I have 4 interviews while working every weekend but I can't complain I love to be working this much, so keeping up with everything may be difficult but its very satisfying, plus I'm a lot happier when I'm working. I will hopefully be getting some great news in the next month that should really give my career a boost, I've never felt closer to getting were I want to be in my life personal and career I just want to keep climbing! well we'll talk again soon! |
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Thursday, 07 January 2010 02:17 |
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Well, I'm going to start blogging! I'm sitting drinking red wine smoking a virginia slim pondering what to write about! I've been in a bit of a writing slump. So I'm going to go blog crazy so I'm at least writing something. I'm about a week away from year 7, and I can't believe how fast the time has gone. I still remember driving to my first open mic thinking that if this comedy thing doesnt work out what am I going to do? If I go after my dream and it doesnt turn out what will happen to my life with not being able to hang on to that one dream. Well thank God it turned out. I get down a lot as I climb this ladder and see all the frustration and what you have to deal with being a comic, like any other job there is pile of shit to deal with. But if I look at what I've gotten to do, the places I've seen the interesting people I've met, all the new friends and life experiences I have, There is nothing I'd rather be doing so when I feel like the waves are crashing over my head I'll take them with a smile because I know the sun will follow. Peace |
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